Lessons Learned From "Frozen"

It's been so long. Too long for me and honestly I have started to write a new blog a few times over the last few months. I am having an internal struggle, a struggle to hold it in or let it go.

My daughter Lilah like most of our daughters right now is obsessed with the movie Frozen. She loves it, she watches it, sings the song, wants the clothes and toys. We have spent many a road trip belting out the songs from this movie. All of us, even the boys love to sing along. (Don't repeat that!) The most well known song from the movie, "Let it Go" has a few lines that perfectly describe my current state of mind...

"Don't let them in,
don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel,
don't let them know
Well now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore"

Normally when I start to feel a little to sad, a little to disappointed, a little to angry, I set it aside. I push it out of my mind and choose to focus on what is good. I normally choose to focus on Jesus and move on. This time is different. I am feeling the Holy Spirit begin to whisper to me, feel it, don't conceal it, don't push it down. This is an interesting place for me, it's new and I believe The Lord is trying to teach me how to use my emotions to become a strength and not a weakness.

We are moving in ten days. Ten days! We are leaving family, wonderful friends and a church home. I know that what we are moving to is going to be amazing and I am excited, so I've been focusing on that. But I feel a gentle nudge in my spirit to let myself go, let myself feel the sadness that comes with leaving a place we love. I think sometimes it would be easier to jump in the truck and hit the road in the middle of the night and skip the good byes, because it's easier not to feel it.

But no. This time has been valuable to me, it has been nearly a third of my life, it's my home. It deserves a proper good-bye. It deserves the broken heart. God will mend me, He will make me stronger. After all, 

"And everyone who has given up houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or property, for my sake, will receive a hundred times as much in return and will inherit eternal life." (Matt 19:29) 

Sometimes you have to let it go, I've decided to stop hiding my feelings and let them go so I can move on in new strength. So look out there is not telling what may happen!

Please be on the look out for updates, God has already done so many great things that I can't wait to share over the coming months! Our journey is just about to begin, it's the jumping off point of no return. I feel more full of faith than ever before in my life. I guess this is what a leap of faith really feels like. I hope you will join me in the journey and that it builds your faith a little so that when you have an opportunity to jump you will take it! You will let go!